Etherati: Just a Toddler
Really just a toddler: 2 years ago today I uploaded my freshly rolled EP Etherati to ReverbNation, 1 song short of a six pack. The next morning my inbox was flooded and it has never recovered, standing at about 1,200 unread messages right now. I immediately entered the Seattle top-10 for Metal/Alternative and never left. My life was also completely disrupted and has never recovered, either, since the signal rate for tripping mood oscillations reached a blinding pace. You see, when you’re bipolar it doesn’t matter if it’s good news or bad, only that it registers an emotional reaction. It’s like having an emotional Hulk inside of you.
That’s a lot of triggers. Toss in “She died a month ago”, “I’m moving out”, “I’m going back to live with mom”, “he wants to come back to live with me, too”, “it’s not working out”, “unemployment claim disputed”, “insufficient funds”, “insurance expired”, a few hundred “overdraft fees”, 6 tickets costing me thousands, 2x “your house is in foreclosure” and then another “you’re fired” but the coup de gras was mercifully delivered with “it just seems like you should be a musician”.It’s no wonder I lost my keys, my wallet, my phone, and then myself when I went Into the Snow. But I’m not taking all the credit, I made a gambit with God, and we’re still working all that out. At least I think I did.
Happy Birthday, Etherati. $0 US, so i didn’t get you a present and pretty much nobody bought you. But my dad, dad, Jennifer, Sean and Andrew send their love.
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